Be It Ever So Humble

I GO HOME TOMORROW!!!!
Yay! Yay! Yay! Yay! Yay!

I packed all my clothes this morning. I pack my toiletries tomorrow, after my shower. We're probably going to pack all the stuff we're taking that's not clothes tonight when I get home from school, which also ends today. I think Jerry has his stuff packed - if he doesn't, he sure as heck better do it tonight. We're not taking too much other stuff with us. A concrete tile that says "Moms Garden" for Pam. A bottle of soda Da really liked that's not available in Texas. Little stuff. That shouldn't take too long, and then we'll be READY TO GO HOME!!! My friend Rachel is going to drive us to the airport, then stop by each day to walk Cody and feed everyone. We're returning the favor when she goes out of town next month.

On a not so good note, I finally had to see a chirpractor. My back was getting painful enough that I occasionally needed Jerry to help me stand up because it hurt so much. I may be a stubborn cuss, but even I know when to concede a point. I found a chiropractor online that had a free 1st appointment coupons, including x-rays, and scheduled an appointment for this past Monday. He did the x-rays and a nerve test - the nerve test showed a couple of pretty bad problems, and he said to come back Tuesday to see the x-rays. So I went back yesterday, and he wouldn't show me the x-rays because he wanted Jerry in there with me when he explained them. That's scary. He did say I had completely lost the lordosis in my cervical spine (that's the curve in my neck, for those who don't know anatomy), and I have a small sidways curve in my lower spine (he didn't use the word scoliosis, but isn't that what that is?). So I have to go back in there today, with Jerry. It means missing yet more school, but what can I do? He did do a quick adjustment yesterday, and I slept better than I have in weeks. I'm going to let him know that today. I'm not really worried that I have anything that can't be fixed - I have every faith the Dr. James can fix whatever I have that's wrong with me. What concerns me is cost. At $35 a pop, I can't afford 2-3 adjustments every week or anything like that. I'd like to be fixed, but with no health insurance at this point, I don't know if it's going to happen. We'll see.

That's about it for now, I guess. I'll know more once I've actually seen the x-rays.

I Give Up

I'm no longer going to be angry that a complete idiot does something stupid. Since she's a complete idiot, of course she's going to stupid stuff. It's taken as read. So, what's the point in getting mad?

I had to leave Swedish class early yesterday, which I hate doing, but I felt so sick. I was lying prone and suddenly got very nauseous and dizzy. The dizziness sort of passed, but I really didn't feel up to working on Stephon. I felt bad, but he wasn't upset. Gil, my instructor, told me to go home and feel better. I had a devil of a time getting to sleep, but I felt much better in the morning. The feeling of disconnection is starting to come back, though. I feel... a little disoriented, I guess. Like the world around me isn't quite real and I don't know what I'm doing here. Hopefully it will pass quickly so I won't feel this way when I go home next week. Whatever. Peace.